Monday, August 9, 2010

Where is my sweet Jelly Belly?

Motherhood has not been very fun lately.
To be honest, I have felt like running away from Jelly Belly more than once this past week.

Yep, I totally jinxed myself last week.  It was too good to be true.  Good behavior, what is that?

My child is possessed!

That's how I felt this morning, that is the text message I sent to my friend.

I called my husband, not knowing what to do.  I can't even describe it.
She has been screaming at me and it is getting worse!  Mostly, when she doesn't want to do something.

She was sent to her room, shortly after I woke her, even before the Lucky Charms. This is what I heard:

I don't like you.
It's not fair.
I don't want to be in my room.

It's not what she is saying that concerns me the most but how she says it. So much anger, and I have no idea where it is coming from.

I don't know what to do. I even considered looking for a full time job today.  Are we spending too much time together? What am I doing wrong.  Lots of questions, and no answers. 
This discipline crap is hard!

She ended up taking a nap today.  I ignored her for a bit and then found her asleep on the couch. She slept for 4 hours! Somebody was tired. 

Almost midnight and she is still awake!
Please let tomorrow be a better mommy day, you know the kind of day the you have never ending patience and love and manage to stay calm and cool....
The kind of day where yelling does not exist and mommy doubts don't enter your mind.

Please let it be a better mommy day!

5 comments:

Libby said...

Oh my! Are you talking about my lil' one? I swear, my cutie pie has been angry, yelling, and throwing things. Time out has been her best friend. I'm sure tomorrow will have better moments, hang in there.

By the way, it's okay for you to have time outs too. I sometimes go in the bathroom and splash cold water on my face. :)

Rebecca said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog! We all have those days and I pray your day is much better tomorrow. Here are the words that I remind myself of when we have those days at our house.

I have to be consistent--it will pay off!
Parenting and discipline is neither fun nor easy, but it is good.
(And this is the best one that someone told me/encouraged me with)
The mom you are five years from now will want to hug the mom you are being now. Hang in there. It will be worth it.

Be encouraged!

Snuggly Monkey said...

You are not alone!! We have many, many days like what you described. I can't tell you how often I just feel like throwing in the towel, finding a full time job, sending them to daycare and saying "screw this, let somebody else deal with this!" but then they have a good day or out of nowhere I get spontaneous hug and an I love you and it seems to make it all better :) Hang in there!

Unknown said...

JDaniel has started with this too. I hear, "I want it now." I calmly tell me we don't talk that way. Most of the time I say it calmly. I think the twos may lead me back to using the gym membershiop we have. JDaniel can be in the nursery and I can workout some stress.

Christianne @ Little Page Turners said...

Yes, they become periodically possessed. My normally compliant, sweet 5 year old will still occasionally turn into a raving, kicking lunatic over the tiniest thing. Usually in public. It's bizarre, unpredictable, and exhausting. Hang in there... and treat yourself to a sitter and a girls night out!

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